I want somebody new

So I'm really sick of school and Brandon. Today at lunch, we were sitting on the grass beneath the trees... he kept asking me if we could ditch class and go have sex. At first he did it really subtly but then he got really direct and I hated it. I was like NO NO NO NO. I can't believe I'm that boring of a person but he just doesn't seem attractive to me whatsoever. I like his music and I like his tastes but him, as a person, NO NO NO NO. I don't know what happened to me. I just can't stand him anymore. I really should break up with him. It's dumb. Almost as dumb as the fact that I went to his house after school and we were making out in his room and he started to bang me then he went down on me and I went down on him. So retarded. I don't know what I'm doing. I need to get out of this town. I need to meet someone who actually knows what they are doing with their lives. Brandon is going back to London this summer. I'm going to be stuck here probably working at the mall. I hate my life.